Friday, June 24, 2011

Let's Get This Party Started

I'm coming home, I'm coming home, tell the world I'm coming home...

I've been at camp for three weeks, and its been a whirlwind adventure, but now it's time to come back home. I've had ups and downs, and I feel like I've grown somewhat and learned some things. There have been laughs and no tears, new friends and very, very lovely old ones. I'm grateful for everything I have and have done, and the love i've felt when I needed it most.

Now it's time for four weeks of freedom. Learning to drive, researching agents, visiting fam in Oklahoma, and NOT getting up at 6:30 am every day. Praise God.

Love to all my friends and family at camp, see you again in four weeks!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Running Up That Hill

I'm at Pre-camp right now and it's really uncomfortable. Some of my friends are here but none of my best friends. Super awkward and uncomfortable feelings have taken place for me and someone else. I'm not on-guard, but I feel very self conscious.

But maybe this isn't a bad thing. I don't really like it, but at the same time, I'm growing and learning about myself and I have to challenge myself to be better and think better of myself and others. It's hard, it hurts, but (and trying not to sound cliche here) this is life. Just have to keep thinking that I'll be stronger from this. That any ground I lose is worth it for all the ground I am and will be gaining.

I can find happiness and peace everywhere I go, not just in places and people that I feel the safest and most comfortable with. I'm running up that hill and the end is going to be worth it.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

I've been photo girl lately, and I've been meaning to stop, but this particular one really captures the mood of my entire night. I've been packing for the better part of two hours and when I stopped to rest for a moment I noticed that I had this hat on my head. Who knows when I put it on, who knows if it's been there all along. But it's pink, it's from Disney World, and it makes me think of cotton candy and hand holding and a love that's so deep your soul is bursting through like sunshine after rain.

Today was a stress ball day, but tonight was the feelings this hat brings and more.

Lovely Friends

Cookie Dough made and given with love

Games that are stressful but destressing at the same time because it means you're high-fiving and laughing and whispering

Night Walks are for the unafraid. The afraid are allowed to go, as long as you have a best friend with you to hold your hand and laugh with until your abs hurt

Packing and listening to the playlist made because of a broken(not broken, only sprained) heart and deleting the pathetic songs and keeping the strong woman songs because you realize that you're better and wiser and thicker skinned than the girl who made it so many months ago

My best friend is leaving, but the adventures we've had and will have in the future and will always have together are bright and shiny and endless

Light Up, Light Up. As If You Have A Choice. Even If You Cannot Hear My Voice, I'll Be Right Beside You, Dear.
I've spoken about the dreaded 10th Week before, but here's another update, just for fun. Eighteen Papers Graded. One Final Proctored. Some Packing Progress. Many, MANY hours to go. However, in an effort to unwind and destress, I have come up with the amazing brilliant notion to combine Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie and Cherry Garcia onto one spoon and pop it in my mouth. A Sound notion? I THINK SO.

'All My Life, I've Been Good. But Now, Oh, I'm Thinking What The Hell' Sing it, Avril